I'm too lazy to make a witty title

So Golden Week was full of me being at home doing a whole lot of nothing. On Sunday or Monday (can't remember which) I got so bored that I just decided to type up an update and post it when I got the time. Here ya go!

So I have too much time to myself, which leads me to over-analyze anything that I could possibly over-analyze. Also, to horribly exaggerate my woes. I feel so silly sometimes for complaining about being in Japan and not home in America, but it's hard to stay positive at times when I have nothing to mentally occupy me at home but homework and music (not enough for me), and nothing to do outside of my house for free but go to school or go to the park (also not enough for me).

I was talking to my best friend yesterday about how kind of depressed I am and how I have nothing to do, and she was telling me that I have to stay positive, which I am sure is advice that I have given her numerous amounts of times. But as they say, easier said than done.

I feel like if I had something to distract me then the next two-and-a-half months would go by very quickly, and thus came my idea of working out and trying to get into better shape. This came to me just a bit after I got back, and I have been going, but what with my a) love of snack foods and b) proficiency in procrastination and half-assing things I haven't gotten very far with actually trying to healthify my diet (yes, I know that “healthify” is not a real word, deal with it).

Something has changed though. Over the last couple of days of vacation, sitting at home re-watching movies and shows that I have seen at least half a dozen times while in Japan, I had my down point decide to incline and my brain go “Oh, right, being POSITIVE.” This dieting infomercial came on the TV this morning and I was glued to the TV for the whole 30 minute run-time. After watching it and coming upstairs and fooling around for a while on my DS, it just clicked into place. I realized that, now of all times, when I have nothing other than school distracting me, would be ideal to take advantage of when it comes to taking care of my body. We all know it's the hardest to start exercising and eating healthy when we have other things giving us excuses as to why we shouldn't go to the gym, or why we should just eat take-out instead of putting a meal together. Although I can't really work on cooking for myself right now, seeing as I am living in someone else's home in which my dinners are cooked for me (though that's a positive in itself), I most definitely can start taking exercising seriously and also watching what I eat for lunch.

On one hand I feel like such a stereotype in Japan for wanting to diet, but on the other... I am not stick-thin like a lot of Japanese women, I could lose a good chunk of weight, and I really just want to be a healthy person. I need to reign in my eating habits for they have been in the low for a long time, with too much junk food thrown in there. It also helps that I'd like to return home looking nice and hot for a certain boy... ;D

On a side note from the dieting thing, but in regards to taking up time and lifting my spirits, I should probably start working on the whole procrastination thing. Start working on my homework as early as possible and not doing shit last-minute the morning/day it's due.

P.S. From Today (05/09) The whole not procrastinating thing isn't working quite yet, but I am trying. Sort of.